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The Good Life - 07/13/2023 - Old man struggling in the sea

I’ve been swimming daily now in the ocean for several weeks. My body has changed, growing stronger with the muscles I use to swim, skin becoming warm and dark despite the sunscreen. The pain in my joints is gone, which is a mystery. But, I’m definitely old and vulnerable. I discover this each time I go into the sea and dive below the big waves which roll over and above me like a churning white truck of roiling foam. Sometimes the biggest waves go above me smoothly, as I glide down by the sandy bottom, flying with eyes wide open, watching a big wave pass above me like a confused white and angry shoreward riot of foam. There are huge energies up there, just above my head, pulsing and grinding and driving with underwater noise and mad action. But sometimes, the big waves reach down to get me, like a giant white arm coming downward to grasp and drag me up and into the wild energies of foam. And when this happens I suddenly know my age, as I cannot resist well the pull, and if I try to fight being drug up, then the air in my lungs begins to spend more quickly, which is really scary; and so I just let myself go, falling up and into the big wave, which tumbles and washes me around for a few seconds before I find my way to the top, where my head comes out and I paw at the empty foam and my eyes go blind with the stinging saltwater and bright sun, and I sputter and gasp a little to breathe and struggle to refill my lungs, hoping another wave isn’t about to crash onto my idiot head.

Yep. That’s me getting old, struggling and flailing out there like a fool in the Huntington surf. It’s more dangerous now for me than when I was young and could swim and glide and wrestle these same waves with relative ease. Usually, after I get beaten down once by the surf, I’ll go back to the sand to sit and warm and bake a bit in the oblique afternoon rays. And while sitting, I watch the younger people playing in the waves, enjoying so deeply the sight of their time, their youthful time, their turn, literally under the sun. I think I’m learning my own place now, discovering both where I do, and where I do not belong. And I like it. I like knowing where I should be, and maybe more importantly, where I shouldn’t. I like finding my age and my place. And I really like growing old, despite the weakness and the pain in my body and the clear fading capability of my brain. There’s something delicious and deep in feeling one’s age, something more rich and profound even than the pleasures of the strength, potential and capacities of youth. Such a season now to relish. Such a time now to truly live.

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The Good Life Meditation is my daily recitation and reminder of personal objectives and principles used in pursuit of a purposeful life in spite of a universe of seeming indifference. Learn more about The Good Life at my website or by reading my book Going Alone. And visit our Discord at:

OBJECTIVES: 1. Be Always Ready to Die 2. Make Good Use of Time and Resources 3. Develop Good and Sound Life Principles 4. Cultivate Good Emotional Reactions 5. Perform Good Actions 6. Recognize True Limits and Opportunity 7. One Thing Slowly

PRINCIPLES: 1. Principle of War 2. Principle of Reason 3. Homunculus 4. Anchorhold 5. Home of Good and Evil 6. Principle of Purpose 7. Atomic Principle 8. Principle of Nature 9. The Pirate Ride 10. Principle of Maturity 11. Social Principle

12. Principle of Family 13. Public Speaking 14. Temperance 15. Life Will Not Go Well 16. The Horror Show 17. That Which Must Be Borne 18. The Feast of Offal 19. Distraction 20. Agency and The Great Indifference 21. The Best Seat in the House 22. The Restless Man 23. The Path of Wildness 24. The Great Life Adventure 25. The Risk of Avoiding Risk 26. Sin and Damnation 27. Complete Oblivion 28. The Season of Philosophy

29. Scriptwriting 30. Bullseye Aim 31. The Uphill Climb 32. Arena and Utility 33. Nothing IS enough 34. The Principle of Fun

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My name is Kurt Bell.

You can learn more about The Good Life in my book Going Alone.

Be safe... But not too safe.

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