Darn it. The worry is back. I had five days of peace before my sleep problems returned. And now they’re back and worse than before. Here’s why: Not only am I awake again thinking about my job, but I’m also up thinking about everything else. It seems that planting a flag in the sand and telling everyone about it regarding our last days of work have re-summoned all kinds of familiar doubts and fears. Will we truly be financially ready? What if we can’t find a place to live? And what if Emily needs us after we’re gone? Sure, Yumiko and I did previously consider and discuss all this and more, and I thought these questions were mostly done, but now they’re back, returned like an angry loan shark wanting his dough. “Pay up! Tell me the answers!” the questions demand while shoving me against a hard pre-dawn mental wall, the questioner not at all satisfied with my weak, uncertain response of “It’ll all work out.”
Oh well, I guess this is just how it’s gonna be. Because we’re not going to alter our plan. Yumiko and I are quite resolved to see this change through. She’s leaving next year in May, and I’m following her in December. That’s settled. We’ll simply work out the details as we go, like we always do. And I guess I’ll just live with the worry and all the lack of sleep until then, or maybe forever. And, that’s OK too, after all.
And as for Emily, we told her during her visit on Sunday that mom and I are leaving her with a credit card to buy an airline ticket home anytime she wants, even a one-way ticket, adding that she’ll always have a room and a place with us wherever we live, that is, if we can only find somewhere to live.
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The Good Life Meditation is my daily recitation and reminder of personal objectives and principles used in pursuit of a purposeful life in spite of a universe of seeming indifference. Learn more about The Good Life at my website GoingAlone.org or by reading my book Going Alone. And visit our Discord at: https://lnkd.in/gFgfGmY6
OBJECTIVES: 1. Be Always Ready to Die 2. Make Good Use of Time and Resources 3. Develop Good and Sound Life Principles 4. Cultivate Good Emotional Reactions 5. Perform Good Actions 6. Recognize True Limits and Opportunity 7. One Thing Slowly
PRINCIPLES: 1. Principle of War 2. Principle of Reason 3. Homunculus 4. Anchorhold 5. Home of Good and Evil 6. Principle of Purpose 7. Atomic Principle 8. Principle of Nature 9. The Pirate Ride 10. Principle of Maturity 11. Social Principle
12. Principle of Family 13. Public Speaking 14. Temperance 15. Life Will Not Go Well 16. The Horror Show 17. That Which Must Be Borne 18. The Feast of Offal 19. Distraction 20. Agency and The Great Indifference 21. The Best Seat in the House 22. The Restless Man 23. The Path of Wildness 24. The Great Life Adventure 25. The Risk of Avoiding Risk 26. Sin and Damnation 27. Complete Oblivion 28. The Season of Philosophy
29. Scriptwriting 30. Bullseye Aim 31. The Uphill Climb 32. Arena and Utility 33. Nothing IS enough 34. The Principle of Fun
My name is Kurt Bell.
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